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Love blinds you, it stabs you.

Looking back, I just don’t understand. I want to know WHY, what I did EXACTLY.

Maybe then your face will stop haunting my dreams. Maybe then I’ll stop thinking about you when I’m with other people. Just know you’ve left a huge dent in me, a hole so large it’s…

Love blinds you, it stabs you.

Looking back, I just don’t understand. I want to know WHY, what I did EXACTLY.

Maybe then your face will stop haunting my dreams. Maybe then I’ll stop thinking about you when I’m with other people. Just know you’ve left a huge dent in me, a hole so large it’s incapable of being filled by the affection of anyone else.

All while you’re with the same girl you left me for. Someone you just met over me, over two years of emotional struggles together. Of me trying to help you.

How does one live? Will I always feel this unbelievably empty?

I paid for food today for the first time in a while.

I had vegan fried potato wedges at my job for $4 but they were seasoned and gourmet and they would have been amazing if it wouldn’t have been the first thing I’d eaten all day.

I took 30mg of Adderall three times on Wednesday, and today I took 30mg. I went 24 hours without sleeping or eating Wednesday and I didn’t sleep until last night. I took this on top of all my other medications. (2mg Klonopin 3x a day, 50mg of Zoloft and 25mg of Seroquel)

I just like being numb. It’s a dumb kind of numbness, unconditional happiness/acceptance.

I need this now, sadly. It’s either suicide or a drug addiction.